Having a cancer diagnosis ten years ago was a wake up call for me and it could have gone so many different ways. I have seen a few friends lose their battle and many continue to struggle. For some reason, I have been given the opportunity to keep living because I am not dead yet!
I am not a perfect person, but strive for excellence in everything I do. I have never felt competitive or jealous but always choose friends I can look up to. I am constantly learning and exploring, being open to possibilities. Several years ago I found out what my core values were and making choices has been much easier. Now that the dark shadow of cancer is mostly behind me, I have to deal with the every day stuff life presents.
Every once in a while something comes up in life which gives me an uneasy feeling in my stomach. That feeling is caused by worry, anger or fear and is usually rooted in something I have done or not done and it always involves another person. Did I forget an appointment, a birthday or did I say the wrong thing? Did I act selfishly? Do I owe an apology? Once I have discovered the cause I always try to repair it but sometimes it means letting something or someone go. I know I’ve done the right thing when that uneasy feeling goes away.
As I live, I will continue to be a more caring, compassionate and creative being. I am grateful for the last ten years and for this very moment. That’s all I have anyway. Right here, right now, and it’s all good.