Roller Coaster Ride

I’m trying to escape and ignore the feelings of guilt and wondering what I could have done to prevent what is happening to me. God, if I didn’t drink or smoke or eat butter, then maybe I wouldn’t have cancer.
I bounce back and forth between the positive and the negative. I smile and then I cry. I want to leave my mark on the world by going in my studio and making stuff, but then I am paralized and just sit, letting my mind wander and imagine the worst.
So now, I am writing this in my journal. I hope it is good. It is something to do, to pass the time.
It is a beautiful day outside. I think I’ll take a bath, paint my toenails pink and go out for a walk on the beach. I haven’t done that in a long, long time.

About Karen Elaine

Artist, author and teacher.
This entry was posted in Uncategorized. Bookmark the permalink.

One Response to Roller Coaster Ride

  1. Loretta McKee says:

    Karen at the last Stamp Escape we all fell in love with you all over again…from last year….. Your wonderful postive and personal approach to whomever you meet is so warming and special. I just know you are going to come thru this difficult period of life …My prayers are with you….Loretta

    Like

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s